I've got 54 days to receive a miracle.

[tadpole1025]

You're right CS. My mistake this time. I've had to remove several messages in the past that were from my friend. I guess mine is the one that needs censored this time. I guess I'm just surprised that W is still checking out my FB page when she doesn't even want me in her life.

As far as her email, I still have not responded to it. Should I just do it with a joke like 25 said or a "huh" like you said?

I feel like I'm slipping again for some reason. Still on the anti-depressants, but man the last few days or even the last week has been rough.

I'm wondering about this "going dark" and "no contact" thing. I know it is supposed to be for me, but I worry like Hell that she may think I'm avoiding her or I am mad at her. I guess that I worry that she thinks I am not talking to her because I don't want to. I would love to talk to her and I can't. It's a very fine line I think and I worry about it always....

Tad