Totally confused

[alone]

Got home last night had a good time with family. Husband is supposed to be home Friday from Chicago. He was thinking of going hunting this weekend with Brent. I was hoping that he was not going to go since we have not been alone since he moved back home. He had made comments about he did not know if he should go or not. Today he called and asked me if it was ok if he went this weekend. Told him that I know that he really wanted to get an Elk this year and that I also would like to have him home. But I will clean out the freezer this weekend so we have room for the meat. He said that he would see if he can get a flight out tonight or earlier tomorrow. Said that would be great. I let him know that I will not be home until 1:30 - 2:00 tomorrow going hiking then to lunch with a friend.

I have been doing a lot of thinking and have made a list of the small steps that we have been making.

1. Husband moved back in.
2. Husband talking about future events with me.
3. Talking about things that need to be done around house.
4. Him going to individual counseling.
5. Calls me everyday while we have been apart since moving home.
6. Asks me if I mind if he goes hunting.

I know that these are little things but they are things that 3 weeks ago would not have been happening. I have to just always keep in mind little steps in the right direction are better then no steps.

I still long for the intimacy that is missing and I hope that it will follow soon. For now I will take the little things and not expect overnight miracles.