I am doing well, having a happy day today. Have any of you ever had blueberry buckle? OMG! I had my first piece today and my world is changed - changed, I tell you
It takes a while but I'm near 11 months of separation and I'm slowly finding my way along the path of my individual journey. I was watching a documentary called Sister Helen about this Benedictine nun who, earlier in life, lost just about everything. She lost her husband and both of her sons. And, although she felt the pain, she etched out a life for herself that mattered to her, that counted and that was important. It was really inspiring. Most of us here have lost a lot, some of us everything that we loved and hoped for. How do you pick up the pieces and find a way to go on? You have to find a way to care enough about yourself to move on.
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Anyway, updating my sitch:
Denver was right. H has gone a little haywire since the D filing. I filed a motion to have it dismissed at the moment. The catalyst was a talk with my older cousin when we were walking the other day.
She's divorced and she waited three years after separation before filing. I don't think I'll be waiting anywhere near that long, but she just told me that she loved her ex-H enough to give him the time he needed to be able to divorce amicably instead of doing it when she knew he response would be emotionally devastating. So, I guess that's what I'm doing.
H's birthday was yesterday. He's 33 now, but still claiming 27. I honestly don't know any other men who do this. Women, yes, but no men. He invited me out to dinner for his b-day and I told him no, thank you. I did spend a half hour with him after work, though, with some co-workers ribbing him and laughing at him, which was good.
All good, right?
Me: 33, H: 32 M: 12 years T: 13 years No kids D-Day: 7/2009 Separated: 10/12/10 Future Unknown GITS
"There's a fire starting in my heart, reaching a fever pitch and it's bringing me out the dark." - Adele
