Thanks TG. I’d love to be able to control other people’s thoughts (scary thought)….especially hers right now. I know it’s not possible though. I do think we can influence them. It seems clearly defining my thoughts in writing is a better way to express my commitment to our M than trying to do so when she has the ability to react negatively during a conversation by screaming at me. A letter gives me the ability to get it all out there. It also gives her something to reference in the future that is not rewritten in her head.
I don’t know…I’m a “logical” thinker trying to figure out an illogical mess.
I’m working on myself foremost. I control myself only. Maybe that explains the I, me and mines…..
I don’t believe a lot of what she says but her words do make me think she doesn’t really understand what I feel. How can she possible say or think that I want this D? I know her head is screwed up but this is the type of BS that makes me think clarity is needed.
I think my big picture goals are simple:
Be the best Dad I can Learn to express my feelings and be vulnerable Be happy Re-establish a meaningful career Save my marriage Be the best husband I can to my W or some woman in the future
