Feeling alone and frustrated with a 180.

[aeolianchaos]

I just sometimes get afraid that I am losing "momentum." Does that make sense?

Yes. No.

What does it look like to have constant momentum?

What does it look like to no have momentum?

Is it truly possible to stop changing?

I have a long history of working my butt off to convince her that things will be better, only to slump back into my old habits once the heat was off. I think she is afraid that if she lets her guard down she will be disappointed, or, worse yet, will be on the receiving end of one of my "meltdowns."

What do you think would be a realistic alternative to this?

Are there things about the changes you are making this time that might reduce the potential for a'meltdown' or a 'backslide'?

I am aware of a few personal strengths that I have - my intellect and analytical ability being chief among them. If I have any strengths in the area of interpersonal relationships, I have not become aware of them. Most of the differences in social ability I have noticed in myself are impairments. I often feel like an alien among humans

They are only impairments to the extent that you allow them to be.

I found it interesting that you focused on interpersonal relationship strengths, given that the way you express yourself here demonstrates that you have a deep and meaningful intrapersonal experience.

That feeling of Alien-ness. Sometimes its fun to pretend they are the one's from another planet.