Had some breakthroughs, as they are, over the past couple weeks...
Had kids this past week / weekend... D9 tue to sun and D13 fri to sun...
W shared some venom this week at a friend as well as to me, yesterday...
Just put my ring back on... literally...
My pain is gone from my perceived loss as I've reframed my view from that of rock bottom...
So when my W sent me the venom along with a recap yesterday, that she'd be seeing her L today and getting her L to write up the separation / D agreement, I spend four hours thinking about it...
then responded, indicating I'd changed my mind...
I simply told her that I had spent a lot of time thinking about it all since our last talk a couple weeks ago and that I will not sign anything that was not determined by a judge...
I didn't think to mention at the time, and she hasn't responded to that, but if asked, I will simply let her know that I do not think that I'm the best person to decide on what's best regarding the kids and the asset dissolution so I'd rather that be left up to a judge...
As much as I was at a point two and a half weeks ago that I really wanted this done (many pressures), I've now found my peace... and in my peace... my power...
She really wants this, now and she wants it on her terms. Best case scenario, she'll get her terms, even through a judge. So no big deal. But if things don't go so well for her getting what she wants... maybe she'll bend on the kids giving me more time...
