Good to hear from you, E! I appreciate your words of support and your big hugs.
You know what, I think I've stepped off the roller coaster, too! I'm amazed by how good I've been feeling the last few days. I've really gotten comfortable with him not being in the house! I have 0 desire to pursue him anymore. When contact is made, it is initiated by him (unless it is absolutely necessary on my part, with regard to the kids' schedules, etc). It's not that I don't feel love for him or am no longer sad about the separation; it's just that I'm not overwhelmed by the feelings anymore. I think this is what is referred to as PEACE. It's pretty nice!!!
I'm prayerful, as well, that the counseling can bring about some positive changes...for him, for me, for us, for our family. If the best thing that comes from counseling is that we do divorce but can be effective co-parents, then that's okay. That's better than being hateful, bitter, ex-spouses who can't get along even for the sake of our kids. If we eventually reconcile, then great! But change is so very needed and necessary.
I hope you are doing okay; I'll check in on you! Love and hugs, sweet friend! lc4
