You will find one day you will post, and all of the sudden your post magically appears in your thread immediately. You'll know you're off moderation at that point.
Hooray! So the sit and wait period of posting does end at some point. That's good.
He feels uncomfortable around me (that's a given.. he called K's house his "sanctuary".. :S.... makes me look at my part in this... where my responsibility lays in all this. His home, with his family who loves him should be his sanctuary.. and yet it's anything but. I feel like I've failed as a wife.) and I feel uncomfortable around him. I'm using this to find some solace in the nights alone. Those are nights where I don't have to feel strong if I'm just not up to it.
He's coming home tonight and I won't have anytime to chat or I'll be late for my art class. Wish me luck when I come back tonight.. he's spent four night's at K's house (still swearing that K is just a friend) and I suspect he might spend the night at home with me... altho' I won't be surprised if he doesn't. Boy.. is there enough push and pull within me or what?
You'll know you're off moderation at that point. 
