I've got 54 days to receive a miracle.

[tadpole1025]

Thanks Antonia and Seeking. I also wanted to say a very big thank you AJ for the wonderful post above. You and everyone here has helped me so much.

Today is my day off so I thought I would catch everyone up on what has been going through my mind.

Basically, I'm kind of mad at myself for not seeing this coming. I can look back over the years and remember how W has wanted to be like everyone else. Or, she would meet someone and start a friendship and sort of "become" that person as far as their likes or dislikes. Her younger sister is the same way. I wonder when she will "snap." Very very weird. It's almost like she never knew who she was. In 25 years of marriage she has wanted to:

write children's books

be a teacher

be a stay at home mom

join the military

work for the forest service

join the roller derby

be an interior designer

be in sports medicine

work in Africa

be a biologist

Now....she wants to be a teacher again.

I really do think that some people are "pre-destined" for this mess. I think it is some kind of personality or character flaw. And the thing that [censored] is that there isn't a damn thing we can do about it.

I just wish I knew more about MLC sooner and that I could have seen it coming....

Tad