Do what I can but still have questions 3

[soccerwife]

I know I have come very far in the last month. I have done incredible self discovery, a ton of learning about relationships and successful marriages, I have become more spiritual, I have learned to take care of myself better, and I have made great strides at learning to listen and control my emotions.

I just don't think I will ever shake the fear that I will be left alone by the man I know I was meant to be with for life.

And that is what I am learning that this is all about. I am just plain scared... that it will hurt, that I will be alone, that I will fail again, that there is something wrong with me, that family and friends will be disappointed, that the future is dark and dismal and I have already experienced all the happiness that God had intended for me.

As for the MC, H approached me about it. I didn't even ask him. I told him I would not support or help with D and it was going to have to be all him. He txt me the next morning that he could try MC one more time. Whether he will put effort into it is another story. And there is the possibility he will just use it to try to further separate us.