Regretful and not sure how to proceed

[In_Shock]

I'm having the worst two days I can recall in my life. The pain is so strong it is just all consuming. I can't stop thinking about her being with the OP-- i watch her sit and text the OP for hours at night. I try to be non judgmental - detach lovingly. I am living in hell.

As most of us know, there isn't much pain worse that having the person you loved and shared a life with for a long time seeing someone else -- telling them the things they told you...etc.... It's sickening and my heart hurts. I cry all the time-- which of course is a sign of depression. BUT when she comes home I am upbeat. Smile- how was your day? Good. Etc....

How to stop the pain? I don't know but it is eating me alive.