Do what I can but still have questions 3

[soccerwife]

I felt all of those symptoms this morning when he told me for the first time that he couldn't do our goodbye kiss ritual anymore. I got a blank stare on my face, whispered to him not to take that from me, got very nausiated, and layed down on the kitchen floor. He simply left for work. How heartless.

I really felt like I was going to vomit. Our goodbye ritual was the last thing "normal" we had holding this all together.

Once I calmed down, I realized that this was just one more thing I have to let him take before he realizes when he is throwing away. I will let him take this off of me, but I know someday he is going to want it back. Hopefully that is before he makes bigger mistakes.

I am really not sure I will be able to do anything to work through the pain without outwardly expressing it. Maybe I will take an Ativan before we go to the session.

I will also try to practice the "Creative visualization" you described. I really don't understand it, but it seems to be similar to meditation. Instead of reacting, I will focus on the symptoms I am feeling and deal with each one separately as they arise. When they have all passed, then I will have a clearer mind to deal with whatever H has said that made me upset.