I've got 54 days to receive a miracle.

[AntoniaB]

Tad you did it!! This is a really big day for you in a good way despite the bad awful stuff. You took what you learned from the posts and your own experience and you held off and didn't contact. You did the right thing/best thing FOR YOU. Be proud. It took guts and you had the guts.

If you say that "having your marriage back" is the thing that would make you happy, then yes, you are codependent. NOW.

The good part is that you can change that.

The more that you increase your self-esteem and get your own life apart from the marriage, the more you'll start to see that needing a marriage to be happy means you are relying on someone else to fill your needs and not yourself.

You are at a strongest place to be in a healthy marriage if you can both fill your own needs first.

This comes with all the GALing.

But kudos to you today. It was horrible; we all know what today felt like. But you did it!!!