Got an apology from XH. Need advice now.

[AntoniaB]

Tad he was AWFUL in the first 3-4 months. Just awful. That's why I was in therapy so long. He beat my self-esteem down really far. By about month 8 or 9, he admitted in person that he had said a lot of things he couldn't remember but knew it was all hate-filled, and that it was because he wanted out of the marriage because he wasn't in love anymore (but was with OW) and didn't have the guts to end it. He said "I wanted you to end it so I tried to get you to hate me, but you wouldn't end it and you wouldn't hate me." So we're at over a year now, and yeah, this is the best apology I've gotten so far, but he still doesn't admit the affair itself is a mistake. He just admits his METHOD was wrong. He has said before in person that he should have ended things before he met the OW. He still believes she is his soul-mate. He's not even close to being out of the tunnel...