I am starting to wake up. But is it too late?

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As I continue to think about my fixing and what my part in the destruction in my M is, I came to a somber realization today. 

Here's the link to my sitch. One year later, W wants divorce.  

I was the one wanting out years ago.  It was me that used D as a warning shot and threat. Furthermore, I was the one quitting my M not my W. 

So, do I blame her? H-e-l-l no. These actions belong to me and are my fixing alone. I was the one who wanted out first. All out of anger and stupidity.

I think sandi2 said it best when it may be too late to wake up and fix things when the other spouse mentions, wants and files for D.

I just hope not it my case. Any advice?