We all are going through or went through the same rollercoaster of emotions you're going through. They don't call it a rollercoast for nothing. My W turned into Mrs. Hyde when all this happened. She's not like that any more, but she just seems ... lost. It really does show that it's not about you, but about them.
Don't take the blame for everything. He contributed to the M not being fed properly just as much as you. The differenc is that you now know what it takes to make a marriage great. He doesn't. It shoes immaturity and lack of understanding.
M-43 W-40 2D - 9 and 5
Emotion, yet peace. Ignorance, yet knowledge. Passion, yet serenity. Chaos, yet harmony. Death, yet a new life.