SA- you said it perfectly. I don't want to believe it and have to keep reminding myself-this is who he is right now! I used to always be the first to defend him and that is a hard thing to stop even with the reality of everything staring me in the face.
SA- remind me again- are you still M? I just filed yesterday and really believe it is the end. He won't wake up.
But, I do often wonder maybe he never wanted children, maybe he never loved me? It is all so hard. I have to turn my brain off. I am afraid though it is all about to get nasty.
