JB, It was encouraging in that he was interacting with me in a positive way in a situation that involved the kids. It's important to me that divorced or not, when we are attending something for or with the kids that we can do that as a unified force. That doesn't mean we have to like each other; it just means we need to get along for their sakes. I felt no encouragement whatsoever that he is once again interested in reconciling - didn't get that feeling from him. On the other hand, he hasn't made a move on the divorce proceedings in a long time; I'm wondering what that is all about, but truly I think it's because he is tapped out financially. I meet with my L tomorrow to discuss just what he thinks is going on and what he thinks we need to do at this point. He is a good Christian man in addition to being a fine lawyer, so I trust his judgment and advice.
I really don't know what I want anymore...for the marriage to just end, for us to reconcile.... I just don't know. That is why I treasure the Serenity Prayer so much, because I need God's help in knowing the difference between what I need to let go and what I need to work on. Tough stuff.
