Regretful and not sure how to proceed

[In_Shock]

SOOOOOOO down tonight. She is out with the OW. I can't eat, can't sleep. Waiting for my counseling appointment at 7 pm. I got discouraged when looking at forum for surviving the big D. Someone made a remark about the newbies not realizing their SO is NOT coming back....I hope it's just because they are jaded over there. I want hope. I want my family.

I am willing to do the work. I am a bundle of nerves, can't do much except cry. I was ok until I found out about this OW. Now I'm terrified I'll lose her for good. Come on my experienced DBers. Please help!!!!

I hate being on moderation. My thread is buried!!