Regretful and not sure how to proceed

[In_Shock]

Gonna journal a bit and hope you guys will PLEASE give me some input! Well, last night I messed up DBing really bad. I found out (she admitted) she had spent the day Sat and Sun with this other woman she's having EA with. I pretty much asked her if she was thinking of having a relationship with her...she said she liked her a lot....THEN i really broke th rules. I snooped in her texts--- and the word devastated does not begin to cover how horrible I felt when I learned they had kissed for the first time yesterday, that my SO told someone else she would run away with this EA/PA now? in a heartbeat......

I didn't say I snooped --but I did grovel, beg, cry.... please don't break up the family. Please don't go....So today, I've cried all day. My eyes are red - didn't sleep last night literally did NOT sleep. Did I f everything up completely with my carrying on? Can I come back from this? I wish she had felt comfortable talking to me earlier == maybe I could have done more. I'm SO SO crushed.