Denver,
You keep running from one pain to another.

You are bouncing around like a ball in a pin-ball machine.

So the pain of having contact with your W while she is uncommitted got to be unbearable, so you stopped all contact....

and you finally told her why.

THEN

The pain of the boundary you set became to much to endure.....

so now you broke your own boundary to go back to the "old pain".

at least you know what that pain will be like.

Look this is a process and most people are not ready for it.......I had to utterly fail in order to get there, so you will not get a lecture from me.

However, you will be in pain for a lot longer than is neccessary......

just sayin'

Cheers

Formerly "missherlove"

Me49 XW49
M17 T19
S16 D20

Expose yourself to your deepest fear; after that, fear has no power, and the fear of freedom shrinks and vanishes. You are free.

~Jim Morrison