I tried to show him all the time how much I loved him, but he checked out the marriage early.
I was going to IC, but she wasnt helping us or me. I need to find a new one.
Sounds like if he is a chronic cheater, checking out is something he does. This isn't your fault and is also not within your control.
The book I mentioned gives insight into Love Avoiders... he might be one. You should check it out. You do sound like a bit of a pursuer - so I thin it is something worth looking into to understand those dynamics.
Yeah, find a new IC - interview some first and see who a good match is- sometimes it takes a while to find a good one you can work with. Try getting a referral if you can.