Been really struggling alot with self-righteousness lately. So my w's only response to my email about her parking ticket was "paid". No "thanks for letting me know" or "thanks for the info". All I wanted was a thank you.. then my thoughts went to "well I'm being civil to you, why can't you just do the same".
I really just want to hit her over the head and tell her what she is doing wrong. How much it hurts me. How much it isn't love. How she abused me and continues to do so. How much she HASN'T changed. I just want to "tell her how it is".
That is not helpful at all.
I have to realize that I am being nice and civil for me. Not to prove a point. I have to realize that me being self-righteous is just a hurdle to stop me from forgiving her. So I found this quote that I wanted to share.
"Forgiving costs us our sense of justice. We all have this innate sense deep within our souls, but it has been perverted by our selfish sinful natures. We want to see “justice” done, but the justice we envision satisfies our own interests. We must realize that justice has been done. God is the only rightful administrator of justice in all of creation, and His justice has been satisfied. In order to forgive our brother, we must be satisfied with God’s justice and forego the satisfaction of our own."
M(f): 40 D'ed: 8/12
Show empathy when there's pain. Show grace when warranted. Kindness in the midst of anger. Faith in the face of fear.
