lc4 - It sounds like what I'm hearing is you don't want to be married to your H as he is today. It also sounds like if you were to move forward with the D proceedings, the one he initiated, it may be something of a 180 for you. Regardless, I think you've come to the realization that if you do nothing else, the dynamic absolutely has to change.
Continue to work on yourself to be the best lc4 you can be. Hopefully, regardless of the final outcome, your H will do something for himself as well. He's not in a good place. He is on the express elevator downward.
I'm so glad you had a good Sunday. I'm very glad he showed up for church.
I'm continuing to pray for you. Just let me know how you would like to pray.