I don't know to be honest??

I feel good not drinking, and I'm enjoying going to the gym
I'm enjoying my kids, so I am aware of what's working, but, I am also really enjoying my relationship and friendship with my wife

Would I be happy if we weren't getting on, yes, I think I would, but maybe not as happy as I am now

I cannot deny I'm very hopeful of getting her back, but if I don't I'll still be ok

But I truly do love her with all my heart