This morning was not a good morning at all. D woke up in a good mood until it was time for me to get her ready for daycare. She refused everything? It seems to me she is getting worse. I can't talk to my H about it because all he will say, she will get used to it.

This past weekend, my H texted me to tell me that he rode his bike over to the house (which I have up for sale because he left) to cut the grass. I was surprised because that was the first thing he has done since he left 7 weeks ago. I told him that you and I appreciate it. Still can't figure out why he did that.

I wish he would talk to me. At least tell me what he is thinking and how he is feeling. But nothing. I don't contact him unless it is regarding our D. And he is pretty much the same.

I pray each and everyday that he wants to try again.

Well, today I start school. I am very excited about that. Something I can focus on besides him.


H: 49
W: 47
D: 6
M: 6 1/2 yrs
H: Bomb #1 6-2010
H: Bomb #2 7-2011
H: Separated: 7-11-11
Reconciling 2-2012
Separated: 1-31-15 (I asked him to move out)