I'm still here

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My gut is telling me that as of now I don't think it needs to be mentioned, because I do not want anything other than friendship at this point. And I was feeling guilty about going, but I don't anymore. My H has made it very clear that he does not wish to be a part of my life right now, and I am not going to sit around worrying about his feelings when he obviously isn't worrying about mine.

I have also realized that all this time that H has been gone I've been thinking about him and worrying about him when I really should be worrying about me. I have based way too much of my self worth on whether or not he will want to work on our M or not, and I don't want to do that anymore. I can't say what this revelation means to me exactly, I just know that I understand it now.