Thanks everyone. It does help a lot to know that there are others out there that are just as attached to their pets. Makes me feel not alone if that makes sense.
Well on the marriage front I still don't know what to make of things. Generally she's hanging around more. Some good days. She stays for dinner most nights.
I still really don't know if there was some kind of affair or not. Tonight I became very suspicious but maybe over something that doesn't exist. Don't know.
She wanted an ipod or similar so she could download some songs to learn. The OM is a songwriter. When I skyped her tonight to ask what songs she wanted she said some country songs (a shock) The OM is not a country songwriter. So I don't know. Maybe I'm to jumpy. Maybe not.
I'm back to working out. Trained tonight but I haven't been able to go full boar. Maybe after a few days of training.
I do realize a lot about myself. I sometimes go into short depressions. I realized today that maybe those occur only when she is around.
I fully realized that I married her largely because she is emotionally unavailable, hot tempered, and negative. Much mimicing my childhood. She's changed a lot of that over the years but that's where we started.
We did some projects over the weekend. I noticed how helpful she was. Always there to hand me the right tool or a drink or whatever I needed. This was in stark contrast to how that would have gone in the past and in the past not having that is the sort of thing that really pissed me off. I thanked her and she thanked me.
She jumped me last night for dropping an f-bomb. I rarely do but did for some reason and it got to her. Strange it upset her since she used to have a mouth like a sailor.
