I've got 54 days to receive a miracle.

[irishblessings]

Tad- I am so sorry for this pain. Last September was our 25th and the day went with no acknowledgement from him - it was a very tough day. Since that time - he has gotten his divorce and has moved on into this crazy life he created. Words from me will have no impact on him - so I keep them to myself.

I guess I am saying this because I am finally getting to the point where I know what I want for myself in the future. I know who and how I want to be. And I want this with or without him. Your dreams have to become yours for awhile. She is not there right now. If you get busy working on your path - away from the toxins in her life right now - you may reach your point sooner rather than later.

I have this secret fantasy that I become the best version of myself - and one day XH shows up full of regret and remorse. The great thing about this fantasy is Iit doesn't matter if reconciliation occurs or not because I will be able to offer my very best to someone who wants me.

I would encourage you to not send the letter. Whether you acknowledge the date or not - she KNOWS how you feel about her and your marriage. You deserve healing.