Thank you. HOw do I get rid of this pain? Yes, I know we r to believe none of what they say but when there is a thread of truth how do you tell yourself that that isn't the only reason the marriage failed. I feel so much guilt right now. I know it doesn't justify what he did. I do know before he left and this stuff was brewing I did push him out by doing just what DBing says not to do. I hadn't found this sight. So, I live with that guilt too thinking had I just done the right things maybe it would have turned out differently.
I know I need to go back to NC. I felt so much better during that time but then I get sucked back in. THe pain rears its ugly head. I have to deal with it though I think not just stuff it so everytime I have to deal with him it comes out. How?
