I've got 54 days to receive a miracle.

[tadpole1025]

Thanks Brooklyn.

What you say does makes sense....just so damn hard.

I'm down today, but a little better than I have been.

I want so much to send her the letter on Tuesday for our anniversary, but I know it will be seen as pursuit. NOT sending it would be "doing something different."

I am almost 11 months post bomb and 9 months since her move out date. I foolishly thought that we would be making strides by now.

I still pray to God everyday to soften her heart and to let me do the right things. Sometimes I feel like he is ignoring me.

I still find it so hard to believe that someone who you shared so much with for so long and was your best friend and lover for so long can turn on you.

I am trying so hard, but sometime it is so hard to try.

Have a great week everyone.

Tad