I can't move forward and it's driving me nuts

[AntoniaB]

I haven't seen that so far but of course, we've only talked about this storm. I doubt there will be anything beyond that.

He emailed me when he got back home today to tell me he didn't sustain damage and was glad I didn't have too much and to take care.

I basically said glad to hear it, if you want to see the damage here you can look at my fb pics which are open to friends of friends, and enjoy the rest of your day. That's it.

I don't expect more contact. But I guess for me, it's been eating at me a long time that if anything ever happened to him or me, that my last interaction with him in March was me calling him an abuser and saying I love you but I never want to hear from you directly ever again. I just didn't want to end things on a bad note even if he deserved it I guess, but I wasn't strong enough to pull off what I did y-day and today until now.

So I guess the fact that I got to this place shows some progress. I have no expectations other than that he'll keep doing what he's doing and I'll keep on with my life :-)

Thank god, I really feel like I turned a corner. It's not just this, it's a ton of things that converged all at once. Despite the wreckage in my yard, I feel sort of like today is all new.