Youngster's WAW Still Chooses OM!

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You've come a long way in a short amount of time west.

Now, I'm really reconciling with the fact that it really could go either way in the end. I'm getting okay with it. I'm also allowing myself to enter the "anger" stage. I spent so much time convincing myself that my W was under the "fog," that she was really very guilty deep down inside and that she was hurting. Not to say that I don't believe any of that's true. After all, her reaction at first was extremely guilt-ridden and she blamed herself, not me. However, I'm really allowing myself to get mad at her for CHOOSING to do this to us. I kept making it out like she got the rug sucked out from under her and she didn't know any better. No, she had a choice to do something else, and she didn't. And now we're here. I can still be compassionate while feeling my anger toward her, I've learned. In the case of an A, you have to learn how to do both.

This is heavy stuff man. Good stuff.

The emotions you feel. You feel.

Being able to feel and not react. Is good stuff. A lesson I have had to learn.

Keep up the work and keep moving forward.

Peace man.