The Long Dark Tea-Time of the Soul

[LearningPatience]

Hi again faithful readers (to steal from Stephen King)! Nothing of paramount importance since last I wrote, but lots of little thoughts cluttering my little Pooh brain...

Spent Friday morning/afternoon emailing friend mentioned above. We discussed some revenge fantasies I had. She thinks I'm pure evil, which I took as a complement in this case. Just describing them ensured I would never do them, to my benefit.

Friday night took kids to dinner with MIL for S14 (now 15) birthday. MIL had a really sweet card for him. This helped cement the notion that no matter what happens between W and I, I *will* keep the rest of her family. They're mine now! Mwahahah

Finished watching Lost with the boys Friday night. It was something nice to bond with them over. Immediately after, S12 asked if we could watch it again, starting at season 1, "so I can figure out what's going on" (if you've seen it, you'd know what he was saying:)

Saturday was S15's actual bday, but he's at grandparents. Ran 12 miles in the morning with running partner, mostly just the two of us. Getting to know her better. She's been D for two years now, mentioned to her I was in a 'transitional period'. She knows I was married once, haven't mentioned current W directly. Seems awkward, but I suppose I should let her know at some point. Not like I'm going to ask her out. Probably. We'll see...

W has sent a few random, probably unnecessary texts over the past couple of days. Asked what kind of gift card to get for S15 yesterday (better late than never). last night, she was at a concert (Whitesnake) and I got a text after asking where they were from. Not to read too much into it, but if she were with OM, he'd have known that. Responded with one word reply after about an hour (England), and she replied almost instantly that she never knew that so many bands she liked were from there. Um, ok. Today, she asked what days I had my boys. No idea why, but I let her know.

This morning, had solo session with MC. OMG, this lady gets it! Went over FOO issues, transitioning into dynamics between W and I. She sees lots of control issues with W, self esteem issues, and so on. She seemed to get right to the heart of the matter quickly. I think that no matter what happens, this MC is going to be great to work with, either individually or jointly.

Just got invited to movie tonight with friends. Interesting that they left off W and OM from the invite. They're often included, but even my single friends are getting fed up. Of course, I said I'd go.

Finally, getting excited for first road trip in new car! Driving to CO on Thursday/Friday, just have to get through the first part of the week. Can't wait...