Hurricane Irene is on her way out of here. It is a rainy, gloomy Sunday morning. Usually I am getting ready for pre-service practice with the praise band at church, but I decided to take the morning off; maybe that was not such a good idea.
I had a fitful night of sleep; found myself waking up and immediately thinking of my W. I had gotten past that a few weeks ago. Now it feels like I am right back at the beginning.
Wednesday I told her and myself that it is over; that I am ready to go to a mediator and make the divorce final. She did not object. Seeing her yesterday really knocked the pins out from under me.
I truly miss her this morning.
H 56 W 48 D27,S21 SS25 SS22 Severely autistic M(#2 for both) 9 1/2 yrs. "I've never loved you" 3/7/2011 Separated 8/7/2011 BITS
