Preseason has begun...just trying to make the cut

[MadeToSucceed]

Feeling some kind of way tonight. At a friend's house but pretty much just watching tv on the couch. Thinking about her a lot today since she runs in about 45 minutes. Doing everything I can to resist reaching out to her. Just feels uncomfortable. She hasn't run in a race without me wishing her well in 7 years...even during all of this nonsense the past 4 months I've continued to make sure my support has been shown. I know what you're saying though CS.

When I was talking about the bitterness I was referring to her. My actions are coming from love. But what I'm saying is am I potentially missing an opportunity to express that without saying ILY by "verbalizing" my support? That's where my other questions and the bitterness part came from...meaning if I don't contact her will she get more bitter since she sent me that email and I didn't respond? If she performs well do I congratulate her? If she doesn't perform well do I "console" her? Or do I just do nothing regardless? This is what I mean...does my lack of action risk more "bitterness" from her? I know there may be no true answer to some of these questions...just stuff running through my head on a Saturday night.