Why is it so hard to just really let go? I tell myself that i am finished, that i am not doing this any more. Then she doesnt do something and i am disappointed about it. I guess, i havent let it all go just yet.
I'm struggling with this feeling myself this weekend. I think we all have these moments.
Some days the head and heart don't match up. We know what's best for us or our children (I don't have any) but our emotions are stronger. They don't care what makes sense or what is best. They just need to be in our face.
Sometimes we just wish our spouse was someone different, in most cases better and more loving, than who they actually are. I've been loving a woman that doesn't quite exist for 8 yrs. Even though she consistently shows me actions, I still want to believe she is someone she is not. My head knows the truth, but my heart gets disappointed.
I'm sure the day we can accept our spouse for who they are, love them for who they are (not what we want them to be) and know that they are in God's hands now.. is the day we truly let go.
I hope this moment passes quickly for you. I pray that it does.
M(f): 40 D'ed: 8/12
Show empathy when there's pain. Show grace when warranted. Kindness in the midst of anger. Faith in the face of fear.
