I'm Far from perfect

[aeolianchaos]

You can't hold yourself accountable for her decisions.

I'm sure she knows you are trying - and I'm sure a part of her appreciates that - so just keep moving forward and with your choices and actions show her that not only are you trying, you are doing.

Like that Yoda quote: "Do or Do Not, there is no Try"

Take care of yourself, love your kids, and keep growing.