trying to preload some thoughts for after work tonight. found a list the 25 had put in someone elses thread about all the rules, 37 of them. reading that a few times before tonight.
i have not heard from my wife since thurs night, usually tonight i pick up my kids after work, so i may or may not see her, she might tell me to get them from her mom and not be there.
i need to buckle down for the worst but not let it show. i may have already pushed her back into the OM arm's, or she might just need space and time away from me to think things over. assuming anything never is good, so i need to be able to be calm, and happy and not bring up any relationship talk, or ask her what she has been doing the last 2 days, nothing. just be happy to see my kids and to have the next few days with them.
to have no expectation that she will want to talk to or see me on my days off. and love her still no matter what. to stop putting conditions on my love i give to her. i want her to be happy.
time to re-read list! need to have it committed to memory!
