What you are saying makes sense. I should talk to him. It is whether I pluck up enough courage. I mean, I am spending the day at my sisters tomorrow who I tell everything to and now I have to hide this? It feels awful. She was the one who was so affected the last time he did this (that we know of) when I was born.
I might go away from home for a couple of days to clear my head. It is too hard with just me and him in the house. Although probably would be even harder if my mum was here.
Today was awful knowing he had lied to me about where he was going and trying not to think about what he might be doing, it really did my head in.
I was in denial about my ex's affair for so long and would never have believed it (well, I didn't when his Dad told me). I was blindsided when it happened to me and I found out via FB of all places. I'm in such a horrible position here.
One thing anyway, I have to move out of here whatever the outcome. I was hoping it would give me financial respite to stay here but I think I have to make other arrangements.
Thank you all for your advice. I'm going to give myself little time to consider.
