Originally Posted By: Jack_Three_Beans

But I think your reponse is different based upon what you want, AND you're still being true to yourself.


So then the question is....

What is it that I want?

This is where I get a little hung up........

I want to be happy........

On my journey I found that MY HAPPINESS is not tied to being with another person.

However, "wanting" to be with someone that does not "want" to be with me is painful

Pain impacts my Happiness.

I want to be Happy therefore I avoid Pain.

Now I also acknowledge that just the mere avoidance of pain does not make me HAPPY.

The thing that makes me happy is the pursuit of being a better ME.

My XW has given me an apology that is global at best and a little self-serving at worst.

Do I want to risk a piece of my happiness by openning myself up to a little pain to see if my XW is feeling anything more than a "global apology"?

The other thing that I found is that I am in a comfortable place......it is warm and cozy.........I don't want to lose my seat either.

Formerly "missherlove"

Me49 XW49
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Expose yourself to your deepest fear; after that, fear has no power, and the fear of freedom shrinks and vanishes. You are free.

~Jim Morrison