time and distance

[any chance?]

W called last night for the first time in a week. I missed her call, then called her back. Kept the conversation light, with no R talk and only little business talk.

She is very comfortable in her new city and neighborhood. Likes her new rental home, and is looking forward to fixing it up. She has already started to apply for jobs. Said she needs to see if she is marketable within hers and related fields. Clearly looking to see how she can do on her own.

Says she is having ups and downs, and had to get off the phone after a while before she started to cry. Says she clearly needs time to sort things out, to clear her head and give herself time to heal.

No discussion whatsoever about her coming back anytime. I think this process is going to take a long time, and there is no way to know how it will end up. I remain in a supporting role, keeping the way paved smooth as they say.

Have to wonder what things will look like several months down the road. I know she needs time to clear her head, but undoubtedly worry that if she establishes a new home, job and friends, that our M and home will just fade into the background noise. Hard idea to get your brain wrapped around. Not a very happy thought.