I'm noticing some things about myself in regards to MM. Any little discrepency in anything she says makes me think "Is she trushworthy?" Little things like telling me she wasn't using Celebrex and the next week she told my co-worker she was. Now, of course, things change in a week, people change their minds etc. But my first thought is of distrust. Yesterday she told me that her client knew she was leaving and apparently the client didn't know. Now, she'd have no reason to lie about that, I've never expressed an opinion one way or the other.I'm willing to concede it was a communication thing. But once again I thought "is she trustworthy?" Due to her accent I'm sometimes lost in a conversation or misunderstand a word or two. It's a frequent challenge. Why the distrust over such minor incidents? I think "what if she's just a pathological liar!" No blowing things out of proportion there lol. I guess because I was betrayed by someone I trusted more than life itself and react strongly when I sense maybe, just maybe it'll happen again. Of course, bottom line is I have to watch what she tells me and confront misunderstandings and if there are frequent instances take that into account as to whether I want to be with her. I feel vulnerable and scared when these thoughts came up. How do you know someone is trustworthy? She's also from a culture where people are far less open than we are. So what is a cultural reluctance to discuss certain things versus hiding something? And of course, I always have Mom's words ringing in my ears "Don't let her suck you in!" Thanks Mom, go team go. Just thinking out loud.
