I've got 54 days to receive a miracle.

[tadpole1025]

Thanks friends.

I probably will not send the letter.

Punkin, it wasn't a bad letter. It was one that spoke from my heart. It wasn't bashing her or anything. I just feel like I should do something for our anniversary. I guess not?

Country Song, when I say that the no contact is working, I mean it is working for me. It isn't helping our sitch at all, but it is making things easier for me because I usually just end up hurting after we do have contact.

I have been missing her terribly today and I don't know why. I have thought about her all day.

She seems to have withdrawn a little bit. She hasn't contacted any of our sons in days....kind of weird.

The new job is kicking my a$$ so, I will cut this short. I appreciate everyone's insight and advice. Please keep chiming in when you can.

Tad