25yearsmlc-thanks so much for the insight. Spoke to H this morning in person. He is once again very remorseful and full of regret. Many tears were shed. Said he was miserable. Nothing good in his life and says he knows he's depressed. I listened and validated. I am terribly sad for him and our M. He said again he doesn't think I will forgive completely. Also, doesnt' know how he can face kids. He is so ashamed. I reminded him they love him and would forgive. Told me I am his best friend and the only one he trusts. He reflects on our good times. I tried to only listen but of course said I can't live like this forever. It is unfair. Reminded him I am willing to do the work. He never said he was though. As miserable as he was and I believe this was not a show, he drove to OW house again. Never asked to come home. I didn't ask either for him to. When he left he said he can't believe the amazing person I am. But, now I don't know that I believe it cause he drove away and I feel like we are not worth the work of recon. He did ask if he could call me again and would like to see kids soon. I said of course. Haven't heard from him again. We did discuss finances so I have decided to put a hold on filing. What do you think?
