HI Tal, I love your posts--always full of such great insight and deep down soul-searching! You are a gem in the DB world!!! No doubt!
Quote: Even when I was ready to give up, I didn't consider being unfaithful. Maybe I knew deep down that no A was going to ease my broken heart. The only reason I considered it at all was that I wanted to hurt Wolfie at first. I wanted him to feel as much pain as I felt--to be absolutely devistated.
I think we all go through these emotions and some go for the "retaliatory A" and others are just strong-willed against it. Guess I find myself wondering--is it really an A since H was the WAS--that is where I have issues in determing. My faith says, "yes, it would still be an A and a break of the vows"....that is probably why I havn't really done much in the dating world--tried to, since H encourage me to--but think that was him wanting to ease his guilt! Fortunately, the one guy that I met, that I would possibly consider an R with is smart enough to not go there with a separated woman!
Quote: There were only two things that could heal me...lot's and lot's of time or Wolfie coming home and working with me to rebuild a better R. I'm very thankful that it was the last thing, but it sure took some time and convincing for Wolfie to see that he really is the love of my life--even after he hurt me so.
I think it is very hard for most WAS's to realize that we have such a deep love even after all the hurt--and in some cases makes it more difficult for them to come back--many of them have already walked away or had the A because they didn't feel worthy of the spouse they had..so now they have done this terrible thing, making them evem more-unworthy! It's is their vicious cycle in their head, I think!
Yes, LaLa Land cannot last forever, eventually they have to deal with the mess they have created for themselves!!!
Take Care Tal! Have a great weekend! And as always, thanks for your wealth of knowledge and wisdom!!
