I have generally been reading along. And I got caught up with the recent events.
This last 'bomb' was very similar to one I had recently. For me. I also learned W was moving in with OM.
So I understand your feelings very well.
For me. It was similar. 'I'm done"
But think about what this means.
I found. It meant I was done chasing. I was done trying to convince. I was done holding on. And hope is a strange word. Can mean many things. But for me. It meant I was done holding onto it. Does that make sense? Hope can exist. But it is a matter of what we do with it. Hold on? Or just let it exist.
Tele. You can use this in a few different ways. A realization of what is at the moment. And then move clearly with that knowledge.
Or you can dwell. What was. What is, and resist. What will be. And be fearful.
I suggest. Take what is. And I know. It [censored]. But it is.
Don't resist. And act accordingly based on the reality.
As long as you continue to act with love. Compassion. And strength.
This reality will work WITH it. And make your path clear.
Be well man.
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Happiness is not something ready made. It comes from your own actions.