It's as Clear as Mud

[Zoo]

Interesting convo here Tal...your thread always seems to have these

I've walked both sides of the fence too...WAW and LBS. I think it helped me to some extent being a WAW...I could understand a lot of what H was going through and it did help me to be more patient then I might have been. It didn't STOP me from doing a lot of the typical crazy behaviour in the beginning though In the back of my mind I was always asking mysef WHY I was acting the way I was, I wouldn't like it if it was the other way around.

To Shiny's question...yep, the opportunity was there for me in both instances. It is part of what precipitated me to sep from X. The temptation started to get to be to great on top of all of the other problems. The weird thing was that even after we seperated I still wouldn't allow myself to give in to those urges. It took over a year and being TOTALLY convinced the M was over for me to be with anyone else.

This time around I don't know if I would have held as tightly to my convictions as I did the last time I think the only thing that saved me was the distance from the opportunity and the fact that I'm reliant on others to transport me around. I'm not proud knowing that but realistic enough to acknowledge it. In the back of my mind I know that opportunity still exists too and I think that if H were to seek another A I would more then likely pursue it

Zoo