Oh yes, I can relate to all of this as well.

In the months that led up to the bomb, CJ was of course on the chatlines and had one then another clandestine A.

I had gotten to the point with our lack of a sex life, our "room mate" status, that I HAD turned away from him.

I fantasized about another life, being single finding another H. One who would meet my needs.

CJ would fall asleep on the couch, yet again, on another Friday night and I would flip him the finger as I walked past the room!!!

I wondered how long I could survive in this desert of an M...although at the same time (denial???) I didn't think CJ felt the M was all that bad...even I thought it was acceptable most of the time....

Confusing, huh?

But yes, I DID feel some of those WAW feelings, but as you said, Sage, I chose not to act on them the way CJ did...I too got angry and frustrated and controlling...

It's just curious to me...tell me ladies were there no opportunities for you all to potentially "slip up" as our H's did?

I know that there are attractive (and attracted ) men where I work, where we socialize, I COULD have played around on-line...never crossed my mind.

Guys flirted, okay...I like the attention. But there was always this LINE..."don't go there!"

Is it that WE just weren't AS unhappy? I mean (Do NOT tell CJ!!!) I had a 24 year old student who developed quite a crush on me two years ago. (he was 22 then)

I thought I was just mentoring him, but when I joked about being old enough to be his mother, he went pale and denied it! He was also visibly shaken when I described how well CJ and I "matched" in a lecture on M (how ironic...this was just a few months before the chat line crap started).

This kid wanted ME...I was flattered but my GOD I am married and have a nephew older than him!!! I gently set him straight.

Okay, now I've lost my point entirely...sorry gang!

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