Punches??What punches?

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Journaling....

Well yesterday's convo was okay. I mean convo with daughter. Since we skype everyday, wife can see me and I, her. This sunday she asked me as to why i looked tired. I told her it was because i just came back from a 3 hour bicycle ride. She said "Are you exercising for a girlfriend?". I knew she joked(she knows that i am horrible in talking to women) but still told her "no, i don't". Now i feel i should told her a white lie

She still has no clue about the motorcycle. I have this nagging bad feeling that i should have told her about it. Then again, she never asks me anything about myself. I'll just have to deal with it when she finds out.

Last week when we talked i did tell her "Wife i just want you to know that i am not gonna be living alone if we decide to split. I will search for someone else. I think she took it as i am actively looking for someone. She did sound upset by it yesterday when she called. I clarified saying I am not looking for anyone. Now i feel dumb as to why i tried to calm her fears down Even now when we have a convo i do have this lil hint of fear, though it has gone down a lot. I feel a lot more confident when talking to her.

Enough rambling.....